[Verse I]

Funny how these things come to light /
Journal entries I've kept inside..../
I just want to be great in life.../
But it's times like this I despise... /
But I realize that my words have power, my /
Words have meaning and I mean it all when I /
Say sometimes I don't think I deserve any /
Thing that falls from the hand of God i mean I /
Know I'm trippin but just hear me listen cuz it /
Took a minute just to get the balls to up and /
Say I'm stupid and I make mistakes whenever /
I attempt to try to do it all on my own /
... I'm my biggest critic, swear I/
Care too much when my name is on it /
Took two years for me to write these bars only to /
Scrap the concept in a stupid moment /
Used to want to be a poet first, and so I /
Spent a couple days finessing poems /
Turned the scheme into a song at 12 and then I /
Called my fam into my room to perform it /
It ain't quite go how I envisioned since my /
Sister trashed it said it was boring /
Switched the vision, started penning fiction and the /
Family knew I had the stories /
Even still I'd be in the bathroom reading /
To myself wishing I could record me /
Thank God that dream ain't die with me I /
Don't know how I would've lived with that

[Verse II]

Funny how these things come to light /
.....come to light.../
Journal entries I've kept inside..../
...kept inside.../
I just want to be great in life.../
...great in life../
But it's times like this I despise... /
...I despise but I /
Realize that my words have power, my /
Words have meaning and I mean it all when I /
Say sometimes I don't think I deserve any /
Thing that falls from the hand of God i mean I /
Know I'm trippin but just hear me listen cuz it /
Took a minute just to get the balls to up and /
Say I'm stupid and I make mistakes whenever /
I attempt to try to do it all on my own /
... And I know that.... And I'm /
Sad our relationship sunk for real, and I /
Had another track I was placing here but /
realized I don't wanna be the cause for tears so I /
Wrote this verse, and I hope you hear it, God /
Knows you support me like everyone else, even /
Though I'm blocked and your number's deleted I don't /
Think there's closure ‘til I say it myself, so.../
I'm sorry for letting you get to know the wrong side of me first....
I'm sorry for not being firm when I knew that we wouldn't work../14
...I'm sorry that it took me this long to finally say it in a verse..../
I guess the dream of us being cordial just died, I guess I gotta live with that.

[Verse III]

....I'm mad excited cuz I'm /
Home, about to make music now, /
I'm with Richard Daniel - who was just announced for /
Secret Stages and we dumbing out - /
he's discussing plans when I get a text from my /
Wife, thought she had just went out /
but the message read "LJ do you even want a wife?"....
And everything that I ever feared came /
Rushing back because she's everything and each /
Time I rap about someone important /
somehow, someway they up and leave but I don't /
Care bout that, I just care about her, she's that /
Motivation when I pen and do this but /
Then she hits me with another text saying /
She feels like she's always second to music no /
Way she meant that, she can't mean that /
Funny how these things come to light at the /
Weirdest times, I ask her why she never /
Told me she felt that way inside /
Her response was selfless, and without question /
she knew when we married I'd be great in life /
but there's so many times when I'm chasing dreams where I /
Neglect and that’s what she despises /
Look I realize that my words have power, my /
Words have meaning and I mean it all when I /
Say sometimes I don't think I deserve you cuz i /
Know you were sent as a gift from God i mean I /
Know I'm trippin but just hear me listen cuz it /
Took a minute just to get the balls to up and /
Say I'm stupid and I make mistakes whenever /
I attempt to try to do it all on my own.