Blessed beyond measure but stressed beyond pleasure /
put my thoughts in these rhymes since most don’t care to /
Can’t confide in most people cuz most can’t bear to /
hear the truth about the things i care about so it’s a /
bout between emotions and this pen yet again i can /
barely see the ink as it bleeds, i live so /
vicariously through these free writes because if I /
voice my opinions I’d get slaughtered for them, right? /
Twitter martyr that let subtweets mar his feelings /
Still learning how to not respond to every villain /
still learning how to not go Capt. America and /
try to save everybody, can’t be there for every body) /
...I’m not Neo after all… /
I’m just me, with my words and my balls in this /
shopping mall looking at the peach juice on the wall thinking /
...I don’t deserve this…
[CLOVERFIELD]
F**K THAT, you need to get your overemotional a** /
back, let shots go at the n*ggas that said they /
truly had your back and then left, just black on them and /
throw their corpses off a cliff, you’d feel better after /
spazzing out… remember high school when that dude came /
outta his mouth and you blacked out, didn’t it feel better /
lashing out, and he never spoke to you again /
due to all that blood gushing out, n*gga that’s what needs to / 8
happen now… having tact is out, you know that you’d /
rather air them out and leave shots embedded specially/
since you get the same on their Wordpress, apply pressure /
they should've thought before they truly tried to test a /
king…. and I ain’t gotta say names you know /
exactly who needs to get put in that boxframe /
murder these n*ggas lyrically mayne and let 'em /
know they f**ked up when they mentioned your name…
CLOVERFIELD: Now see perception is reality-
Eljay: No, perception is key, it’s not reality how they view me, only if I believe
CLO: See that’s that reasonable side of you coming out for a second. I can’t quote unquote" believe" you’re out here second guessing that you haven’t been plastered as a villain in these texts and these SMS messages or maybe you’re just guessin’ huh?
Eljay: I don’t check 'em, I don’t need the stress, besides the /
only thing they get is a bar and that’s it
CLO: But yet you here again in this whirlwind of a war within....why?
Eljay: Just in case something ever happens where those people that offended and I can maybe make amends and-
CLO: Lord God, you’re still hoping you and them can still be friends?) / 12
Eljay: Kinda.
CLO: Bruh, let me paint the picture again, vision almost got burned to cinders because of these quote unquote friends. Same people who ain’t have no problem just leaving you alone to just fend, and you ain’t learned a lesson?
Eljay: Point made, but I know I’ll be great.
CLO: No see they think you’re great...as in this great monster that take shots in every direction and formation like a 2-player game of Contra-
Eljay: No I get that, but I put all of my passion in these gift raps, but I feel trapped sometimes and I feel that I can’t get back to just being able to be myself for a minute.
CLO: They poke and prod at the monster behind the gated fence until it turns and evolves into this...
Eljay: But now it’s too late; I’m married and somehow caused heartbreak in three states. I can understand why I'm muted today, a year ago I dropped "Type of Way"... everything is switched up. That second verse is null and void, ran into some hiccups. Listened to that verse again and thought, "Guess this is what it looks like to have hope without joy, this monotone flow that sounds heartbroken crying on wooden floors and shit...
CLO: ....So now what?
Eljay: I move on, hope no one ever hears the actual outro to this EP.
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